Chapter 20

"Hey Kris?" I said sitting next to Kristin,"is there really a dating policy?"

"No, it's only as long as it doesn't affect your work." she said sipping a soda.

I sighed thinking back to Nina

"why?"

"I dunno, does Nina like Aj?"

"Yea, she tried to get with him a little before he met you, but he turned her down"

"Was he mean about it?"

"Well, he told me that he just told her that he didn't want to date his tour manager."

I nodded

"She didn't like me either when I went out with AJ"

"you went out with AJ?" I asked surprised

"yea, nothing serious...."

"did you guys do anything?"

"like?"

"you know, have sex or anything?"

"Oh"she said quietly, "you know Erin, I mean, we shouldn't be talking about this"

"why not?"

"because I have bad memories ok?"

"but wait, you guys get along great"

"I know"she said standing up, "listen, if AJ wanted you to know what happened between us...he would have told you ok?"

"Well c'mon Kris, I have a right to know, I mean he is my boyfriend"

"Ask him about it ok?"

"Fine" I said taking out my cell phone and calling Aj.

"hello?" AJ asked

"hey, I don't wanna talk about this over the phone but I have no choice"

"what baby?"

"Well, I was talking to Nina and she told me that it was against rules for me to be with you and she told me to break up with you"

"she did?!?!" AJ exclaimed,"oh hell no"

"well see I was thinknig that we could just act like we broke up around her, but we could still be together."

"we shouldn't have to do that baby"

"I know, but do we have a choice?"

"yea, I mean, she works for me, so I can fire her"

"No J, it's fine"

"Fine"he sighed

I nodded, "so ummm...Kristin said that you two were a couple"

"we were" AJ said quietly

"what happened to break you guys up?"

"It's a really long story...I don't want to talk about it"

"why not? I mean what happened between you two?"

"Maybe I'll tell you later"

"No! I want to know now!"

"No" he said plainly

"If you can't trust me with this, then you can't trust me with anything"

"I gotta go" he said quietly

"whatever" I said hanging up.

~*~New Jersey Hotel~*~

We were all on our way up to our rooms.

"AJ and Kris, can I talk to you guys please?" I said as we got to Aj's room

They both walked in and sat down on opposite couches

"Will one of you please tell me what happened that could be so unbearable to talk about?"

"Erin, trust me, I mean it's better left untold" AJ said

"tell me" I said between my teeth

They looked at each other

"you tell her" Kristin said to AJ

"No, you"

"Fine" she said quietly, "About three months before you met him, AJ and I were together and it was nothing serious, but it was serious enough. We didn't have a normal relationship, because we didn't love each other. Anyway, all we did was have sex. Anyway, unfortuantly, I got pregnant, and we had a fight over it. And Aj..."

AJ looked at her as if it was time to stop.

"and that was it"

"No it's not, keep going"

"Well AJ didn't want a baby so he told me to get rid of it. And I said no, then, when I tried to leave he hit me....and, well I mean more or less beat me, and I lost my baby in my living room." She said as tears came to her eyes. "I really wanted my baby, but he didn't, so there you have it" she said getting up and walking quickly out of our room.

"I can't believe you!" I exclaimed getting up, "were you gonna kill our baby too?"

"no" he said

"I can't do this, I'm breakin this off"

"what??" he excalimed getting off

"do you expect me to stay with you after I just heard that story?" I said looking right at him

"yes, that was a while ago" he said walknig twards me, "and it's not happenin. You're not leaving"

"whatever AJ" I said walking away as he grabbed my arm, "let go of me!"

"No" he excalimed throwing me on the bed.

"What are you going to do Aj? You gonna beat me too?"

"Shut up!"he said getting up and pacing the room

"Is that why you can't keep a relationship AJ? Cause you kick her ass everytime she tries to leave you"

"I'm warning you" he said glaring at me.

I stood up,"Fuck you, and don't even think about hitting me, cause I will have so many people looking for you. Trust me, I always get my way Aj" I walked out of the room.

*****

"I dunno Denise, he just went crazy" I said to Denise.

"Well do you know why sweetie?"

"No" I cried, "he really scared me, I mean no one's ever hit me before"

"he hit you?"

"no, just grabbed me and pushed me" I said showing her the bruise on my arm from him grabbing me, "can you come with me to get my stuff? He's your son so he wont do anything to me"

"Ok" she said standing up. We walked back to the room and she knocked.

"What!" AJ called from inside

"Alexander, open the door"

Aj swung the door open and was about to say something until he saw me standing there.

"I just came for my bags" I said quietly

"Mom, you don't have to be here" AJ said as he let me in, "I'm not gonna touch her"

She looked at me

"it's ok" I said as she walked away

Aj sat in a chair and sipped his beer, "so who's room are you gonna stay in?"

I shrugged

"You could always stay here"

"no, it's ok, I wouldn't want you to beat me"

"You know damn well that I wouldn't hit you"

"Well you sure left one hell of a bruise on my arm"

"Sorry"he muttered

I sat on the bed and started crying.

AJ stood up and sat next to me, "don't cry"

"You scared me Aj, I mean, I don't know how to act around you anymore. You keep on having these mood changes and stuff..."

"I know sweetie, I'm sorry"

"No you're not, you just don't want me to break up with you"

"baby, I wasn't going to hit you, I swear"

"yes you were"

"No"

"then why did you act like you were?"

"I thought it would make you stay, I'm so sorry"

I stood up and moved onto his lap, "don't do that again ok?"

"Ok"

"and no more secrets right? when we ask something, just tell the truth"

"ok sweetie" He said hugging me, "I love you"

"I love you too"

AJ kissed me softly before deepening it.

"No" I said standing up, "We can't"

"Can't what?"

"you know...have sex"

"Why not?"

"Cause I said so. Now come on, we can go sight see before the show"