Chapter 33

~*~2 days~*~

AJ had ignored me except for small talk. We all walked off stage after the concert and towards the buses. I took out my cell phone and checked my messages.

'Erin-It's JC, Justin got in a car accident and is in the hospital. He um, he hasn't woken up yet and---Umm, you know, just call your house when you get this' he said hanging up

"Oh my god" I whispered as tears quickly formed. I dialed Jc's cell

"Hello?" He answered

"It's me" I said, "What happened, when, is he ok?"

"We don't know" he said

"When did it happen?" I cried

"This morning at 2 am. He was on his way home from a party"

"Is he ok?"

"I told you we don't know" he said

"What the fuck do you mean you don't know! This is my fuckin brother!"

"Erin calm down...he hasn't woken up yet, and the doctors don't know if he'll make it through. It was a really bad accident"

"Ok, I'm gonna fly back ok?"

"You know, you don't need to"

"Yes I do. If he wakes up before I get there, tell him I love him ok?"

"Ok" JC said

"Bye" I said hanging up before breaking down and crying.

"Erin?" Brian asked, "Honey what's wrong? What happened?"

"Justin" I sobbed, "he's dying"

Brian wrapped me in a hug while leading me towards the others, "Now" he said as we stopped, "What happened"

I wouldn't let go of him as I cried, "He can't take my brother away"

"shh, calm down" Brian said rubbing my back softly, "Nick, get AJ" Brian said.

Nick ran on the bus and came back a second later with a worried AJ.

AJ took over and wrapped me in his arms, "Come on baby, clam down, you're gonna make yourself sick"

"I can't" I cried

AJ kissed my forehead.

"Take her on the bus, we gotta go" Nina said.

"Wait, I gotta go home" I said pulling away from Aj

"We'll talk about it when you calm down" she said ushering me on the bus.

AJ took me to the back of the bus and sat down pulling me on his lap.

"Aj, I just need to chill" I said trying to clam down.

"You wanna tell me what happened?"

"Justin was in a car accident, the doctors think that he might not make it out." I said wrapping my arms tighter around his neck.

"He'll be ok" he assured rubbing my back . Nina came back.

"So, you need to go home?" She asked

"Yes" I nodded moving off of Aj's lap.

"If we replace you, I don't know if you can get your job back"

"What?" I asked softly, "Nina, you don't understand. My brother is dying, I need to be there"

"I know, and I'm willing to let you go. I'm just saying that if Fatima doesn't wanna dance in your spot until you get back...then we'll have to replace you"

"Fine, I don't care" I muttered

"There's a car that will take you to the airport now"

"Oh, ok" I nodded getting up. I noticed the camera crews and sighed.

AJ stood up and walked me off of the bus, "I'm sorry I can't be there with you"

"I know you can't. I love you baby" I said hugging him.

Aj hugged me back and led m towards the car. He opened the door and kissed my forehead, "Bye"

"How come you wont tell me you love me?" I asked softly

"Huh? I do"

"Say it. Right now"

"Why, if you already know?"

"You used to tell me all the time" I said softly

"I love you" he said quickly and without emotion.

"Whatever," I said getting in the car, "bye"

"Call me when you get there. We'll be at the hotel" he said before closing the door

"You ready?" the driver asked

"Yea" I whispered We drove to the Airport.

~*~*~*~

Are you sure there aren't any flights that I could get on. I really need to get home" I pleaded.

"Ma'am, we don't have anything with openings going to Florida for two days"

"Are you sure. I'll pay someone what ever to have their seat. Trust me"

"I can get you on a flight that leaves on Wednesday at 2 pm"

"I need one today. I wont even be in this city in two days."

"I'm very sorry" She said

"Fine" I sighed turning and walking away. I walked back over to the driver, "You can take me back to the hotel" I said. I got in the car and we drove back to the hotel. I silently walked by the fans.

"Erin!" They screamed

I sighed stopping.

All these girls came up asking for pictures and autographs.

I signed about fifteen, "Ok, I'm sorry, I gotta go. I'll try to get the boys to come out" I said turning around. I went inside and went to the front desk, "Can you tell me what room Aj Mclean is in?" I asked

"Nice try" the girl behind the desk laughed.

I dug in my purse and pulled out my Pass, "I'm a dancer and his girlfriend"

She inspected my pass then began to type into the computer, "Do you know what name he used to get in?"

"Ummm...I think he's under like Frankin Furter" I said before giggling at her face.

"Uh ok" she said, "Ok, he's in room 1459"

"Thanks" I smiled. I went up to his room and knocked on the door. 

He opened it, "What happened?"

"Ummm, I couldn't get on a flight. I'll try again after we get to the new city tomorrow"

"Oh" he said

"So are you going to leave me out here or are you going to let me in"

"Listen Erin" he said, "There are reasons why you can't come in"

"Why?" I asked trying to peek around him.

"There's no one in here" he sighed

"AJ, stop playing games with me ok? Did Kevin tell you to break up with me like he told Nick to do Mandy"

Aj sighed, "I don't want to. You know I love you more than anything"

"Then don't" I said simply, running a hand through my hair.

"It's not that easy" he said, "The cameras and all"

"They knew we were together before the show started"

"I know, but like we can't do anything on camera, we can't be like how we normally are"

"Can I come in, so we're not talking about this in the hall"

He opened it.

I walked in and sat on the couch. he sat next to me. "AJ, the fans know that you have a girlfriend and that you most likely sleep with me. Out of all the backstreet boys, you're the one that they wont be surprised about. And if it's a big deal, we don't have to have sex. I don't care. I just don't want you to dump me, we just got over a break up, I'm not sure how many more we can handle"

He sighed before nodding, "You're right"

"Baby, I've had a really hard day, can we just lay together, and you can hold me?"

"Yea honey" He smiled standing up. We walked into the bedroom.

"The cameras right above  the bed" I said looking at it

"Yea, I know" he said

"I don't know where my clothes are" I said

"You can wear some of mine" He said going over and pulling out a t-shirt.

I changed into it and smiled as it hung down to my knees. I climbed in the bed and snuggled up to him.

"I love you" He whispered

I smiled up at him, "I love you too"

"Sorry about how I've been acting"

"It's cool, I understand" I nodded.

"So did you talk to anyone about Justin?"

"No" I said reaching over him and picking up the phone, "Can I bill it to your room?" 

"Yea" he said