chapter 34

"So everything's ok?" Aj asked the next morning.

"Yep" I smiled, "They said he woke up and that he's just resting. I'm still gonna try to get out there before he gets out."

"did you have a good sleep?" He said stretching

"Uh huh" I lied. The truth was, I stayed up all night worrying about Justin.

"The camera crew wants a confession with the girlfriends"

"Not all of us are here" I said getting dressed

"Well basically with you and Leighanne, but Leigh's not here, so just you"

"That's all you had to say" I said, "Ok I guess"

"Good, you're supposed to go there now"

"Oh, what room?" I asked

"1462"

"K, I'll be back baby" I said. I walked out and down the hall. I saw some of the dancers, "Hey"

"Hey" they said, "We have to do these damn confessions. They're just asking us questions about the guys and being away from home and stuff"

My turn came and I walked in and sat down.

"Ok, Just relax...we're gonna ask you some questions"

"Ok" I nodded

"So, how long have you known the boys?"

"Umm, about a year"

"You enjoy dancing for them?"

"Oh I love it. I've always wanted to do this"

"How's the tour going?" 

"It's going good. I mean it's always the same stuff over and over, but in the end, it's doing what you love"

"Do you miss your family a lot?"

"Yea, it's really hard to be away from them for so long. I mean before I graduated, I only had been away for like 3 weeks at the longest."

"Are you and Justin close"

Tears came to my eyes as I thought about Justin.

"You ok?"

"Yea" I nodded wiping my eyes, "Yea, we're close. We argue like normal siblings. I don't hold him up on a pedal stool like the fans do. He's my brother, just Justin to me. Nothing different. He's all I could ever want in a brother. He protects me and only wants the best for me"

"How do you get along with the backstreet boys?"

"They're all really cool guys. I have grown to love them all as my family."

"Let's talk about AJ for a minute"

"Ok" I said

"You two have been together for how long?"

"About six and a half months" I smiled

"Do you live together?"

"No, I still live at home with my family"

"Do you share a room on tour?"

"Sometimes. Like there are some nights where we wanna share a room when we go to cities so we do. Then there's times when we need our space"

"How is he as a boyfriend?"

"He's great. He's really good to me and he makes me happy"

"Are you in love with him?"

"So much" I nodded with a slight smiled, "He is truly my first love, and hopefully we can be together forever"

"Forever...that's a long time...especially after only six months"

"to be optimistic" I said

"AJ is known as the rebel. Is that the real him?"

"AJ...well I mean he's the sweetest thing ever. Like he'd help out anyone he could. He can have a temper, but I mean, who doesn't"

"Do the guys fight a lot?"

"They have their little arguments, but that's part of being a group. Agreeing to disagree"

"Do you ever fight with the other guys or dancers?"

"Well, there are always like minor arguments. You know like the dance doesn't look right, or I wanted that bunk. With the guys really it only happens when there is a lot of stress on the tour and then everybody gets snappy."

"Do you fight with AJ a lot?"

"No, we argue here and there, but not all the time"

"Have you and AJ ever cheated on each other"

I bit my lip, "Umm yea, we both have cheated on each other actually. But we got past it and it's over"

"Who were the other people?"

"I'd rather not say"

"How do you get along with the other girls?"

"We all get along great. We hang out when the guys go to the studio and stuff."

"Leighanne's expecting a baby"

"Yea" I nodded

"Brian's the Christian boy, we would have figured you and Aj to be the first to have a baby out of wed-lock"

"Are you implying that I'm some sort of a slut?" I asked narrowing my eyes

"Are you implying that Leighanne is one?"

"No!" I said, "See everyone puts a characteristic one the guys without knowing them. Just cause Aj's the "Rebel" doesn't mean that he'd fuck anything with two legs"

"Have you had sex with him?"

"Does that matter?" I asked

"Actually it does"

"Yes" I said simply.

"How do you get along With AJ's mother"

"Denise is cool. She kinda like adopted me" I said laughing lightly, "She's such a sweet woman"

"How do you deal with the fans?"

"Ummm, most of the fans are cool. Like they always want me to take pictures with them and stuff. I like to sign autographs for them when they ask"

"It makes you feel like a star"

"No, it's just something that come with the territory of not only being a girlfriend, but just being on tour with the boys. The fans want pictures with everybody from the light manager to us dancers. It kinda makes us feel special when they want our autographs."

"Cause you're living in the spotlight of AJ. Dating him could make you a star. Rich and famous."

"You know. This interview should end now" I said getting up and walking out of the room.