Chapter 38

"Wake up" AJ said shaking me.

"What?" I whined

"It's our anniversary"

I looked at him and smiled, "A whole year"

"Yea"

"Give me a kiss"

He backed up, "Brush your teeth first"

"Jerk" I laughed standing up. I walked into the bathroom and brushed my teeth, "All  better" I said wrapping my arms around his neck and kissing him, "Can I have my present?"

"One of them is in the front room"

I quickly went out to see a big box wrapped in pink wrapping, "ohhh, it's pink"

"You don't have to unwrap it, just take the lid off."

"K" I said. I took off the top and looked down at a tiny Pomeranian puppy, "Oh my god" I squealed reaching in, "AJ she's so pretty"

"Oh good" he sighed, "I was afraid you wouldn't like her"

"She's perfect" I said petting her. I stood up and hugged Aj, "Thank you so much"

"You're welcome"

"I mean it" I said as tears sprung to my eyes

"Honey, don't cry"

"I just feel so special" I said, "What should I name her?"

"Whatever you want" he said walking into the bathroom.

"I'm gonna name her Star"

"Ok"

"Don't you want your present?"

"Sure"

"You have to find it" I teased

He started looking around the room. "Hot or cold?"

"Way cold, you're not even looking in the right part of the room"

He came over to the bed where I was now laying.

"You're warmer"

He leant down and kissed me, "Hot?"

"Sorta"

"I'm not good at these games" he whined

"You're present is somewhere hidden on my body, you just have to find it"

AJ grinned as he climbed on top of me and started undressing me. He kissed his way down my body and finished taking off all my clothes except for my panties, "Where is it"

"Where haven't you looked?"

He looked at me weird and then took off my panties. An envelope fell out. He opened it to find  a gift certificate to this tattoo parlor he had been eyeing since we had been in LA. H egrinned looking at it, "How much is it for?"

"I dunno, it's weird, they'll explain when you get it"

"Let's go today"

"Don't you wanna finish what you started"

"Oh yea" he said climbing back on top of me

*****

"Your boobies are bouncing" AJ laughed as he grinded his hips into mine.

"Well I bet your balls are bouncing too" I laughed then let out a small moan.

"You like that" he said before kissing my neck softly

"Maybe"

"I bet you'll like this" he said pulling out, "Turn over"

I looked at him for a minute

"Come on baby"

"I dunno J"

"I promise you'll like it"

I shook my head no

"Please, for my present" he asked sticking out his bottom lip

I turned over and Aj entered me doggy style.

"See" he said after I let out another moan

*****

Aj and I walked hand in hand down to the lobby.

"Hey" Brian said.

"Hey Brian" I smiled as Aj went to get Marcus.

"You're glowing"

"I am?" I smiled

"Yep, you just got some huh?"

"No!"

"Yes huh, I heard you"

"oh yea?"

"Yep"

"Awww, don't be jealous cause Leigh won't give you any"

"You just wait till she's used to this baby"

"Ok, I'm done talking about this with you" 

Aj walked back over with Marcus, "You ready baby?"

"Yep"

"Where you guys going?"

"To get a tattoo" Aj said

"Where are you gonna get this one? You're running out of room"

"I dunno, I'll find a spot"

*****

"Erin, we'll just be a little bit" Kevin said trying to drag Aj out

"Where are you going?"

"Down to the bar"

"But Aj, it's our anniversary"

"I know sweetie, and we have the whole night to celebrate"

"Why are you drinking now anyways"

"Damn, hella questions" he laughed

"Fine, go I don't care"

"I'll be right back, I promise"

"k"

*****

I sat on my bed next to Brian sobbing.

"Erin, calm down"

"It's already 10 o'clock Brian. He ruined our anniversary. I mean he's been gone for like five hours. We were supposed to go to this really romantic dinner and everything."

"Call his cell phone again"

"He wont answer" I sniffed picking up the phone and dialing it.

"Hey this is Aj, leave me a message and I'll hit you back"

I hung up, "Bastard"

"What about Kev's cell"

I quickly dialed Kevin's number.

"Hello?" a voice slurred

"Kevin?"

"That's me"

"This is Erin"

"What's up?"

"Where's AJ?"

"Dancing with some girl. Opps, you probably didn't wanna hear that huh"

"What the Fuck, where are you guys Kevin?"

"Club Infiniti" 

"Well thanks for ruining my whole anniversary, you selfish bastard"

"Wh-"

I hung up, "I'm just gonna go to bed Bri, thanks for being here for me"

"Always" He got up and left. I changed and laid down then quickly fell asleep next to my puppy. I woke up to pounding on the door.

I quickly hopped up and went to the door looking through the peep hole. Marcus was standing there.

I opened the door and see him supporting a wasted AJ

"He's all yours"

"You know, you look just like my girlfriend" Aj slurred walking in, "I bet she wouldn't mind us fucking since you look just like her"

"Aren't you supposed to protect him"

"I'm not a babysitter Erin, you know that"

"I know" I sighed

"You'll be ok?"

"Yea" I said looking at AJ who had taken a seat on the floor and had fallen asleep. I turned back off the lights and went to sleep.

"Shit" AJ mummbled waking up, "Erin?"

I sat up and looked at him

"I feel like shit"

"Good" I said coldly

"What's that for?"

"You're such a bastard"

"What's wrong with you?"

"You took a perfectly good anniversary and ruined it. You are so selfish"

"What anniversary? Ohhh...." he trailed

"Yea, Oh" I got up walked in to the bathroom. I took a shower adn came back out.

"Baby," Aj's raspy voice started

"Save it AJ"

"But I'm sorry"

"I don't think you even know how much I'm hurt"

"Let's do it today"

"No, I'm gonna go home"

"Oh come on, I promise to make this a perfect day"

"Yesterday was a perfect day, but you ruined it"

"Let me make it up to you" he said walking over to me and taking my towel off, "You're so beautiful" he said looking at my body.

"Give me back my towel"

"Let me make love to you" he whispered trailing a hand over my belly

"No AJ" I said taking the towel and drying off. I got dressed in a pair of jeans and and a gap t-shirt.

"I'm sorry" he said again

"You really should be" I said putting on my shoes

"Baby, just let's start over. I know I messed up, but I can't go back and fix it"

"I'm just gonna go home J"

"Why?"

"I was supposed to go home today anyway"

"What time?"

"tonight" I said putting my stuff in my bag, "Marcus is taking me to the airport"

AJ started getting dressed

"You're not coming with me"

"I wanna drop you off too"

"No, you can stay here and sleep off last night" I said trying to keep the tears in, "You know AJ, I expected way more from you. I'll see you when the tours over"

Aj picked up my puppy and petted her absent mindedly.

Marcus knocked on the door and I opened it to let him in, "Kristin and Leigh are ready, are you?"

"Yea" I said. He took my bags and I put Star in her Carry on bag. I walked out of the door with him.

"Erin..." AJ trailed

"Don't bother calling me" I said waving him off. I met up with the other girls and we went to the airport.

*****

"Hey Justin" I smiled walking in.

"Hey girl, how was your trip"

"Horrible, Aj got drunk and we didn't celebrate it. Then I came home."

"Awww, sorry"

I shrugged, "Look what I got" I said opening the Kennel and pulling Star out, "Isn't she cute"

Justin just looked at it, "she's gonna shed"

"Shut up"

"Why'd you buy a dog, we already have two"

"You already have two, I wanted my own"

"Fine"

"It's my house too" I said

"Try paying some bills" Justin muttered

"What?"

"Nothing"

"I pay bills" I whined

"I know"

"Then why would you say that"

"I dunno, I'm sorry"

"Good" I sat down. The phone rang, "If it's AJ tell him I'm not here"

"Hello? Oh hey AJ...No she's not here...uh uh, she hasn't called yet. I'm not sure when she'll be here...I'll tell her to call...I don't knwo if she's mad cause I haven't seen her. Don't you know her cell phone number? Well call that then, maybe she'll answer, Alright, bye"

Justin hung up and minutes later my cell rang. I opened and closed my flip phone hanging up on him. He called right back and I let my voice mail get it. A couple of minutes later I checked my voice mail.

"Hey Baby, Listen, I'm so sorry about last night and I wanna do anything to make it up to you. I dunno why it seems like we fight on every single major day in our relationship. I dunno, just call me back so we can talk about it ok? I love you....bye"

I sat back

"Just call him" Justin sighed

I picked up the phone and dialed AJ's number.

"Hello?"

"Hey" I said quietly

"You got my message?" 

"Yep"

"So....i'm sorry?"

"Don't you realize what a big del last night was to me?" I asked walking outside and sitting on a lawn chair

"I do"

"Obviously you don't cause you're not really sorry"

"What do you want me to do? I can't do anything cause you went home. I tried to make it up to you when you were here and you wouldn't let me. I mean Shit, I don't know what you fucking want from me"

"Damn bone" I head someone mutter in the background

"Oh, don't think just cause you're in front of your friends that you can just cuss at me. Don't disrespect me"

"I don't know what to say to you" Aj sighed sitting down on a couch next to Nick, "How many times can I tell you I'm sorry"

I just sat there for a second, "look AJ, just forget it ok. I mean there's always next year right? I mean I 've never been in love on my one year anniversary with someone and when I finally am, he goes and treats it like it's any other day. You could have gotten drunk any day Aj, but you picked our Anniversary to get wasted . If you loved me as much as I love you, you wouldn't do that to me"

"Don't question how much I love you. You know I love you more than anything and you act like I forgot it was our anniversary I mean I did get you a present right ?"

"Yea" I said simply, "look, I gotta go"

"What the fuck, Erin?"

"Forget it Aj, I'll see you when you come home ok?"

"I'm not coming home for three months"

"I'll see you then"

"So you're not gonna talk to me for three months?"

"Let's take a break"

"A break?"

"Yea, let's just see other people for a second. You know see if we're meant for each other"

"You already know we're meant for each other"

"If we're meant for each other then we'll get back together"

"so you're gonna break up with me because I messed up once?"

"You mess up all the time"

"You do shit too, Erin"

"I know, let's just see what happens"

Aj just sat there silently.

"Alex?"

"What?"

"So I'll see you when you come home?"

"Why are you doing this? Is it worth it? I mean we break up all the time, I swear if we break up, I'm not sure we'll get back together"

"Ok"

"I can't believe you" he said as his voice started to rise then he lowered it, "I love you so much Erin, why are you doing this to me, I give you the world and treat you like a fucking princess and just because I fuck up one time, you wanna throw away all the fucking love we have for each other." He said chocking back tears.

"Aj, why are you trippin so bad"

"Fine, fuck you Erin"

"Oh real mature Aj"

"SO that's it?"

"I guess so"

"Hold on, Brian wants to talk to you"

"Erin?" Brian asked

"Huh?"

"Are you crying honey?"

"Yea"

"Why?"

"Cause I'm hurt"

"So you're trying to hurt him?"

"No I....I dunno, I want him to realize what he's losing by losing me. Is he sitting next to you?"

"No, he got up and went to the bathroom. He's like balling"

"He is?"

"He really loves you honey, he messed up"

"I know"

"Just forgive him, and move on"

"are you sure? I kinda wanna see what else is out there"

"Why? You love him right?"

"Yea"

"And you still have sparks when you're with him right?"

"Yea"

"Then right now, there's nothing else for you"

"Put him back on the phone" I sighed

"K, hold on"

"Hello?" he asked a second later

"Age, listen, I don't wanna break up with you. I really do love you and I guess I expected way more for our anniversary..."

"And you know I would have given you the world on a platter...but I was stupid and I messed up and if I could I would come to your house and do it all right today"

I nodded, "Ok, maybe when you get back ok?"

"So we're ok?"

"Yea"

"Good" he smiled, "I love you"

"Me too"

"So Fatima's dancing in your place for the rest of the tour?"

"I think I'm ok to dance again, but I dunno if Nina would let me"

"I want you too. I like it when you dance for us. You look all sexy"

I giggled, "I'll give her a call tomorrow and see if it's ok. My ankle is ok now"

"Yea"

"So where are you guys?"

"At the arena"

"Oh"

"Alright baby, I gotta go. I love you so much and I'll call you before I go to bed ok?"

"K, hey Aj?"

"Yea?"

"Kev said you were all up on some girl last night"

"Oh"

"Were you?"

"I don't remember"

"Did you kiss her?"

he cleared his throat

"Did you?"

"Honey, I don't know"

"Well don't call me back until you find out" I said hanging up.